[im Fallin’; I cannot see you, I cannot bring you, back beneath the tarp The place that you once knew But you just flew away] And I cannot understand why you’d do it I had tried so hard, foolish When you’d just put the knife through it and in the end i guess it’s all the same 80’s Yo I wanna go back like we’re in the eighties kick it No cell phone real simplistic Before I was born n had gone ballistic And all of my kinfolk had hit their misses and everybody had just gone their own way but me I stayed the same still lookin for a place for me, I got the same craves and I’m doin all the same damn things this is me won't change nothing Life’s a joke and the jokes on me Except for bones and potpourri I’m Just tryin to find my way through the bars that restrain but hopefully one day’ll free me But I don’t ever see that comin for me, But I can’t really quit, so my stomach will sing, how it misses the food and everything you brought me, but now you disappeared and that is all that I see So baby don’t leave me in so much anger Just try to look me back in my face And try again to tell me you hate me, before you walk away I’m probably just lookin for somethin I’ll never get Tryin’a fumble for the exit in the devil’s basement Can you keep a little secret from the one who’s sposed to win I think the only thing that I am gonna find is punishment Oo baby I just try to be true but only end up a fool And everything that I did, it never really came through So you just look at me crazy like the fake from my crew Tried to show me I’m evil and had plenty of proof, you were right, The whole damn time You were right. The whole fuckin time I can not control the facts of life But you cannot forget what I said with my weary eyes 2ND VERSE so I come to baby that’s a new me I got booze and some new shoes on my two feet Watch the fool who never sang tunes when you asked me Sing all about his prollems cuz I got an ocean of em I just wanna get down again, but I’m a clown to my kin and I’m flounderin’ I’m gettin fuckin played like I am a mandolin I’m betrayed and I’m called to the stand again And I’m naked for all who wanna see my shame again. Once again I wanna show you in but I can’t. So baby don’t leave me in so much anguish Just try to look me back in my face try again to tell me hate me before you walk away I thought for sure I had shown you my heart But In the end it just fell apart, but you can never feel the fall when you’re fallin’ hard You think no home means no trouble at all But you’re just gonna stumble and fall, without me there And that’s what hurts the most Why do you go, why did you stay And will you ever know what It’s like to end up this way

I don’t owe you nothin no more I don’t hold you to my heart, girl, at all cuz You’re gone and don’t matter anymore I know you but you don’t know me I’m immune to bein lonely An exception but one only I just want all this to end Let me out and hit the roachy Like you when you was my roadie I just wanna be a-ok No I don’t hold you to nothin homie I just wanted you to know me Now just like before Where I go I’m alone You wanna up and leave Well that’s ok with me But who can strip me of all these memories I got nothin and no one and no dreams beside me No you’re not my quiet peace, violet seas, my everything No I don’t, owe you, nothin no more Now I’m free to chase cars and money and some toys At-least I don’t see your face Taking all that space I’m high as can be if only you could see I’m The Epitome of se la vie These ball and chains think that they are free but wait until they all see me yo I run shouting without no pants on Play video games way past 3 These 12 year old kids don’t stand no chance no I’m ranking up to 43 cuz Iii don’t see your face And I don’t want you anyway No I don’t see you no more Except when, my eyes are open or they’re closed I’m so confused Girl what is the use

I’m so bored cuz I’m so old And I don’t know what I’m supposed to see but I’ll try to take what I can away All my damn mistakes and my amnesty against all who think that I can’t make it though I’m a mistake We’re gettin out, down, dumb, and dirty Droppin cypher rhymes, no cops, on burly I’m back, 330, what’s that, a birdy, I have, a bag, we back, it’s early, But late for us so we come out, eyes good and ringy, ears too, and us about to try to find our way home, get our ride but it’s now, just past us, so we lie on the ground, lookin at the sky, maybe I’ll take me a lil nap. Pass me some water. We outta that, I’m gettin pretty thirsty, feeling mighty bad, might as well reach back, for the powder pack. I’m so old Fuck, fuck, oh dude what did we do. Never again. Next weekend? I don’t see what I’m sposed to be so I’ll waste the day No there’s no damn cheese for a dog like me so I’ll waste away Oh No I don’t think, we’re supposed to be, in this endless pain baby the self regret, and the hopelessness and the no escape for a dog like me. A dog like me a dog like me.

I’ve got my head heavy and I can’t look back Mr. “yeah I’m ready” as the lights go black. Listen, I don’t know if I’m’a strike no match in the heart of anybody but I can’t cry on that, no. I’m old and too cold for a change Keep on writin’ these old songs for no plays I just hope no road dogs from old days listen to my songs when old throat meets cold blade Somethin we yearn for but don’t say Cuz if we ignore it maybe it’ll go away Listen to me just drone on like Cold Play if you told the younger me I’d recoil like “no way” But life has a way of dickin’ ya down, draggin ya round, through the night then givin’ ya day And it’s funny after the shit don’t change you realize that you are better off with all of the rain Why’d you have to go to such lengths to escape my arms? I can’t figure it out. Yo Honestly I too often wallow my regrets Callin myself out as if the ball in my neck Is gonna gather all the harm I did and somehow correct It, yeah it’s stupid but I do it cuz it puts me in check, I’m fine. Baby don’t leave me hangin I tried The scenes that just keep re-playin are getting tired I just wanna keep on dreamin’ But the need to keep eatin’ is a greed-filled demon. I’m a Cold hitter, old heart that don’t stop. Love for my fuckin’ friends, but where does that start? I got lots and lots of hodge-podged parts jammed slots that make Flaw this young old fart With these skills he should hold for some smart thing he don’t know so out pours this half-assed art Baby just run run, just run far, I’m sorry that your songs just came once you were long gone. All I can ask is you stay A Minute more We can finish up You ain’t in to nothin’ else. Just don’t quit on us There’s nothin for ya The world don’t care, it don’t quit until it whores ya There’s nothin more You don’t believe it but it’s true Let’s just chill for a minute even two And you will see what was right here in front of you. Somethin’ better than anything you were gonna do. Far from perfect but the best thing and I can prove it Just give it a lil’ while And you’ll see I was tellin the truth, the whole time while You lied to me Time is fleeting at the same tempo Your heart is beating And it’s slower every day Remember that Later gator

Candy candy, my, you look so sweet to me Candy candy, how could I know that you’d be poison to me I cried so hard I can’t deny too much longer, can’t say I ain’t try You just had to go. Watch you float away slow Candy candy, my, you look so sweet to me Candy candy, how could I know that you’d be poison to me

Where do I go And where do I set all this hope Opportunities open and glow But I never get there before they close So I just stay ever on my toes I’m ready to move forward but at the very end don’t I swear I’m clever when I string together letters and these notes So I put them in the water but they never seem to float But still I can’t not try and I don’t know why I ain’t never gonna better them guys Who is more clever than the fool who never tried Left struggle for the pigeons and just took his lot in life I Feel the swelling of the ocean as I’m clingin to the pyre Prayin for the sun, a memory of fire Somethin bout a tearing heart just strugglin for the sky Just because I want away, think I should get to fly Let me go Let me go again Let me go

All I know is I’m never gonna cover up the hole I don’t know Unless you suddenly get grown I don’t know But now I know that I’m never gon’ get better but that is just how it go I would write a fuckin letter but nothin’s left in my soul I’m gone, and that’s fine. Got these holes in my spine. On my own, all is right. Feel the storm, in my eye. Rollin stone, in my ire Cuz lord knows I laid the pipe–built the highway that they run down but I’m alone when I die. So that’s cool, I can’t lie. I need distance you need time. I want meaning you want life, eventually you will find No one’s gentle and kind And the best, they’re just fine And to live diligently is the only way to end up alright. One day you’ll understand I was down for you That I wanted you more than you did, More than you loved me, cuz you wanna find somethin’ more exciting. Guess I’m doin things. Unfortunately Still a human mane. I try to change who I am in vain. I’m throwin’ so many thangs in my veins. I wanna bee all productive, like Wayne But it all amounts to nothin, again. “Everything’s deprived of meaning” they say But I know they’re wrong they’re wrong like always. Maybe one day you will understand I was down for you: That I wanted you more than you did, More than you loved me, cuz you wanna find somethin’ more exciting. Let me tell you baby everyone’ll let you down. I’m the only one that always would’a been around. Even-keel I don’t ever get angry but you want someone intermittently wanting to strangle you and I don’t get it. I get that shit. But is it good for you to really end up with that shit cuz that’s exactly what it is, girl. Just leave it alone and come kick it with this grown kid.

When I first wake I’m never like “oh this is ok”. I try to tell myself I’m on a good path if I can stay it though. Cuz if I’m successful In that it means I’m gettin on track So then Im feelin’some tracks and I get in to some raps but then I’m drinkin’ a rack and I wake up and I’m back same bullshit. This is whack But this is fuckin’ life isn’t it, and then it goes black. That’s why my heart beats heavy. That’s why my words come slow. That’s why my thoughts always heady But I don’t ever think so. I had a baby, and she loved me to hold her but.. She knew she’d be older soon. Says she wants to be alone so she can make the decision to be just with me or gone. And I wanted her to go so she could figure it out but I could just not stop holdin’ on to her you know? I think that pushed her away now when she step in a room it muthafukkin’ consumes me like when we first started hangin’ I guess it was too soon. Oh yeah but she stopped me writin’ well And so I live life in hell. I’m always torn between two things: doin right and doin’ well. I’m always fuckin’ parched, dying of thirst while I sit upon the well. I want to go yeah, but I have to stay. Want you to know me, but there ain’t no way. I tried to show you love but you just look away. You say my words all come from some strange foreign place. Why can you not just trust me? We’re both the same. You’ve never felt a love so gentle bold and plain. You want excitement, my soul was born old and grey. Though I’ve got what you need you say you don’t want nothang.

I feel like everyone’s a comet but lacks what’s real See I’m not too lucid you’ll find me Too high with 2 spliffs beside me. 2 lines and 2 hits behind me, 2 fines that right slipped my mind b. I just wanna live life ok, dog, But much trouble slips up behind me. I’m just tired of lost shots that was a sure thing and now I’m a lost cause but all these Hot shots roll in all these things they want, Pop off and the top’s just rainin funk. Is it wrong that I want their pain to come Later on so they cop the rain I’m on? I just don’t want this shame and this fomo constantly hauntin’ me all cuz I hang on To is a purpose that’s probably copied like K-K-K-K-K-K-Kinko So just leave me all alone with my dang flow. I’ve been here for a minute and I can’t go. I’ve tried everything, switchin up the angles But I just slip into the mist like a rainbow. See everybody wanna be the dog baby not me wanna stay in the fog. But I’m doomed to fuckin’ hittin’ the clock gettin embittered by the strangeness, me and my dogs. I don’t see you. Where did you go? Now I’ll be goin’ through it all my life. Now I don’t see you (where’d you go) Where’d you run off to and how can you tell me to stay when you flew the coup? I don’t got a lotta commas so comments is always comin’ but I can’t muthafukkin’ change that. But I don’t really care about the same thing kids Do cuz I’ll be aight when the light fades black. But I must run till it’s the day that Life’s one big drug – get to lay back Gotta hunned 8-packs 1-ton Ajax And maybe 2 do doo ta ta’s but that I’ll neva’ know. Do I ever show through my severed notes? “Nah that shit’s for a 2-time clever hoe”. Poppin heavy so I’m gonna do it better though. Wanna Take it to the top but it’s ever slow. Growin’ mops up top like I’m Legalos, Got dope don’t need you un-heteros. Been here for change but cannot tame the dang brain un-derange my several Needs. Please just please, please believe me. Bein’ on my own isn’t easy. Got coke and meseeks and mecheeks But not my baby–she said “kapeace” ‘piche. Then got a tin friend without soul I sought loss and got lost in Costco. So just leave me the raw, dog, and alone. There’s nowhere that I’m from so I can’t go home. I don’t see you. Where did you go? Now I’ll be goin’ through it all my life. Now I don’t see you (where’d you go) Where’d you run off to and how can you tell me to stay when you flew the coup? I don’t stick beside you, give you life dude, true of time too, I don’t know now. And I don’t give you light dude stick beside you give you time, true, I don’t know why. But I don’t like em don’t like me and they don’t like me back and that’s ok with me now. If I can run, let me run, help me run with the ones from my home town.